Friday, July 3, 2015

Contrast is everything . . .

Since moving here, I realize how much stress I've been under, not only these past 12 months, but generally all my life. It's self-imposed, so I can't blame it on anyone (hate when that happens). But now . . . but now . . .

This morning it was sunny, with cool little breezes, so I went out onto the deck with a journal (thanks to my sister for having sent it to me years ago -- it's perfect for right now) and a cup of coffee.

I watched a couple of rabbits work the yard. A doe and her fawn munched on salal, not minding my presence a bit. Juvenile bald eagles soared and cried out to their parents for food. And, because the deck floor is the ceiling above the juncos' nest, I could hear the vibratory wings of baby birds in the nest when mom or dad would arrive with food.

And once again (since the 20th or so of June) I realize how the stress has disappeared. How I feel happier (novel concept) and don't wake up in the night worrying about what has to be done right now or what I said or did when I was twelve. No life-rehashing. No fretting about the future. It's just a daily thing, enjoying every moment in the present. Who knew feeling "normal" would feel so good?

Anyway, this is what I saw when I sat outside this morning. Taken with a cellphone. Tweaked in a cellphone using Snapseed. Tweaked in Photoshop later using Topaz. Totally awful. But perfectly reflecting the moment. Life is good.

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4 comments:

Laura said...

I am living through you words as you share about the wild life around you. Happy to hear there a peace that has come in the moments you witness and share.

June said...

So happy for you!! It is never to late to learn new skills like relaxing, gaining insight and taking a deep breath. JC

Carol Leigh said...

Thank you both, Laura and June, for your kind words. But where are you when I really need you -- to help unpack! :-)

Unknown said...

Great pic. I know that cup, used one last weekend. Said my hellos to the slate colored juncos. Junco is a terrific Scrabble word!